My drop in the ocean
Tuesday, 16 October 2007
What do I write? Who's reading?
I've tried starting this post about 15 times now. Everytime I pressed the backspace key with the thought of 'What if someone who knows me reads this?' . The correct response, we all know, the one that scores full marks in an ideal world, is 'Who cares? Be yourself'
Not that simple. We still tend to define ourselves by what others think of us. Of course, not all the time, not in all respects. I hate generalizations. But whenever I do something just because it's expected of me, even though I don't want to do it, I remind myself, 'Dude, this is one of those times when you cease to be your own master. To hell with them, be yourself!'
Not that simple. My weakness overpowers me and I end up being a man with a mask - people see something I'm not, something I have put on especially to show them. I'm going to overcome this weakness, one step at a time. In this case, one honest post at a time. I don't care who's reading. I don't even care if anyone is reading. Right now, the only thing that feels good is the realization that I'm being myself - 100%.
Are you one of those lucky people who are (or have become) strong enough to be yourself? Do let me know in the comments.
Not that simple. We still tend to define ourselves by what others think of us. Of course, not all the time, not in all respects. I hate generalizations. But whenever I do something just because it's expected of me, even though I don't want to do it, I remind myself, 'Dude, this is one of those times when you cease to be your own master. To hell with them, be yourself!'
Not that simple. My weakness overpowers me and I end up being a man with a mask - people see something I'm not, something I have put on especially to show them. I'm going to overcome this weakness, one step at a time. In this case, one honest post at a time. I don't care who's reading. I don't even care if anyone is reading. Right now, the only thing that feels good is the realization that I'm being myself - 100%.
Are you one of those lucky people who are (or have become) strong enough to be yourself? Do let me know in the comments.
posted by Wasted Light at 15:13
2 Comments:
i did the same thing initially when i started writin my blog - using backspace -
now slowly i have overcome that feeling of what will people who read it think about it...now i write wat i want to.
all ur posts are put down so well, thats one thing i wish...[wantin MORE here ;)] i wish i could write as well as most of the bloggers
neway the positive side, i aint that bad..and ultimately wat matters is that i convey my thoughts!!
@ιℓℓυѕιση : no, your writing aint bad at all - you write in a good flow, and as you said, what matters is that you convey your thoughts!
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